Social media influencer Emilie Kiser has detailed her family's 'terrible Christmas' following the drowning death of her young son earlier this year.

Kiser, a popular mommy blogger on TikTok, lost her three-year-old Trigg on May 18, six days after he was found unresponsive in the family's backyard pool in Arizona.

The influencer said she refused to 'force normalcy' this holiday season as she shared a candid post at grieving at a time of celebration.

Since returning online in September, the 26-year-old creator has shared only vague, guarded updates on her life and grief journey with her 5.1 million followers. 

On Saturday, Kiser posted a 'get ready with me' video in holiday pajamas, chatting with fans and revealing why her family skipped Christmas at home for a road trip. 

'I just didn't want to force a normal Christmas because it is not a normal Christmas,' Kiser shared.

'It was, quite frankly, a terrible Christmas for us - I saw that just to be real and honest,' she added.

On December 25, the grieving mother shared a quiet glimpse of her morning, packing her nine-month-old son Teddy’s duffel bag before heading to California to spend the holiday with family.

Social media influencer Emilie Kiser said she refused to 'force normalcy' after her son's drowning earlier this year and described the holiday as a 'terrible Christmas' 

Kiser, a popular mommy blogger on TikTok, lost her three-year-old son Trigg on May 18, six days after he was found unresponsive in the family's backyard pool in Arizona

The clip drew more than five million views and a flood of comments, as viewers questioned her trip and asked how she coped with her first Christmas without her toddler. 

Days later, she delivered the highly anticipated update, opening the five-minute video by thanking fans for the overwhelming amount of sweet messages and well wishes she received in her direct messages.

'Truly so grateful for my family this year, even though we were not home for Christmas this year. We just did not want to have a traditional Christmas without Trigg,' Kiser said.

'My family made sure to just make us still feel so special - make it special for Teddy,' she added.

She emphasized how grateful she was for her siblings, who assured her they’d make the holidays as comfortable as possible and go to any lengths to make the day easier for her family.

'We were able to just have very quality time together and that is really just all we wanted this year - making memories still, but not having it feel like a normal Christmas.'